This is a little embarrassing to admit.
I’m generally a confident person.
I’ve been running for over two years now, so I’m reasonably confident in my fitness.
But gyms make me nervous. I’m intimidated by gyms. In the past I have only gone in to use the treadmill or the cross-trainer. Never for a class or anything else. For awhile I’d liked the idea of crossfit because I know I need more strength work in my training. Same deal though, freaking terrifying.
I took the plunge and committed to it anyway. Told people about so I couldn’t chicken out.
I was there about half an hour early, like I am for most things. And I began to completely freak out. What was I doing here? This would be just as humiliating as sport at school which I was crap at. And there would be all these people I wouldn’t know. And I would be awkward. And uncoordinated. And crap. Every single social anxiety that I have ever had seemed to increase tenfold. And then I cried because I was overwhelmed and it just seemed insurmountable.
So I did the only thing I could think of to do which was to talk to some awesome people I know. Who managed to talk me off the ledge. Who reminded me that almost everyone is intimidated by group classes. To just get my ass in there so I couldn’t back out. And I run 20kms on a regular basis, I could do this.
Walking in and being surrounded by men who were all over 7 feet tall did nothing for my confidence. Was there a height requirement I was unaware of?!
But you know what? I could do it and I did. But I would have never known that if I didn’t know some great people.