Today I got an email reply from my local CrossFit gym about popping in to talk to the staff about a good starting point. The me of a few years finds this highly amusing. The idea of voluntarily entering into a strength program is beyond funny. And I actually look at Ultra Marathons and think I could do that. Even though I haven’t run a full marathon. Details, surely?
It happens slowly at first. Almost so you don’t really notice it that much. You start to lose that voice of self-doubt in your head. Once you prove that you can do a couple of things, doubt stops being quite as important. I guess it’s still there, but I talk back to it a whole lot more.
“You couldn’t do that” – Self doubt
“Pfft. I totally could” – Me
I compete with myself. If that voice of doubt gets too loud or goes on too much with the complaining, I do more, just to prove it wrong. If I was going to run 10kms, I’ll run 12. Just because I can.
The last few weeks have been kind of crazy. I went for a stretch after the Mt Tamborine half where I hadn’t run for two weeks. I was just tired and you get into a bad pattern. And then on Friday I woke up early and instead of rolling over and snuggling Piper a little bit more I got up, got my gear on and headed out just as the sun was about to burn off the morning mist. As soon as I did that it was as if my run was talking to me ‘so there you are’ as if it had been waiting for me all that time.
I’m currently in an offseason period (cue maniacal laughter from past Zoey) because my next race is roughly 4 months away. Actually it is 161 days away. I know that because I just registered. And because I was early I got a free singlet. I’m easily persuaded.
Which gives me 4 months off from tapering and recovering which I think will come in handy with starting a strength program. And also gives me a good period of time to lose weight to get me to a better race weight in 2014.
I think that’s a big change. I no longer really think about weight as an ideal weight in terms of how I look. I think of it in terms of strength and speed and what’s ideal for that.
Running rebuilt more than my body I think and I don’t really recognise it, but I think it’s pretty cool.